I’ve been writing a lot lately about the causes of doubt in our own lives, be it doubt in God’s existence or His purpose for us. But that’s the doubt that comes from our own lives, when we struggle with failure or frustrated desires.
I concluded last time by recalling that God is everywhere, and not just in our own circumstances. We have to remember that, because there’s another kind of doubt, one that arises when we look beyond our own circumstances. What are we supposed to make of God’s purpose when a newborn baby starves to death? What plan could God have possibly had for that baby?
That’s a tough question, and I don’t claim to know the answer. If we wanted to end poverty, we could. There’s enough money in this world. But it’s not going to happen, because sin is in the world. Selfishness will always keep that from happening.
So I think about the Lord’s Prayer. Jesus taught us to pray, “Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done.” As ambassadors of Christ, we are called to help bring the redemptive love of Jesus to the earth. That’s bringing the kingdom. “Thy kingdom come, thy will be done.” That’s bringing the kingdom to earth.
I think He has a plan, a perfect plan, for how this is going to all work out. And there are so many ideas, so many talents, so many skill levels, so many different callings, and so many different passions among people that we are overflowing with opportunities to bring the kingdom. I don’t really know how much I can or cannot do. I know that I’m going to try to do as much as I can.
My biggest fear is that I’ll sit before the throne of God one day and He will say to me, “You gave me 90%. I needed one hundred.” I don’t want Him to say that. I want Him to say, “Well done, good and faithful servant.”
And I’m not working for my own salvation. That’s not what I’m doing. By the blood of Jesus, I am saved. No, what I’m trying to do is be a light. I’m trying to be a city on a hill. I don’t want to be one of those cities on a hill that didn’t light it up enough. I want to make sure that I’m hearing God correctly and that I’m doing what I need to do. My calling.
More on this next time. See you Friday.